:'( i cried after i read claireyeo's xanga post :'( and wth im still crying now.

claireyeooooooo.

idk what to type here but i really know how you're feeling now cause i felt exactly the same when i saw the ct list and everything. i was trying my best not to cry at og dinner after seeing the ct list but ended up crying on the bus on the way home and at home too cause i was just so sad and shocked and everything that i didnt end up with anyone in ploty/ anyone i knew and everything.

first day of CT i felt so damn loner okay D': i really really really missed ploty a lot a lot and just felt so out in my new CT which was probably why netto and i cried while playing werewolves with you guys D: idk its just like ploty's this bunch of 12 ppl whom i have absolutely no problems clicking with and its just like a family already, i come to school, i see you guys, i hang out with you guys, i do everything with you guys; you guys basically are what my upper sec life's about.

but suddenly in jc there's ploty no more to see first thing when you reach school.. idk there's just this sense of familiarity no more :( i can act silly, goofy, lian, bimbo and whatever in front of ploty cause you guys are like family to me already i can just be myself and not care about anything else. it's kind of different for my CT i guess... i really miss ploty a lot too :( in ploty its like you know that even if someone like tiny gets pissed it'll be fine after a while cause we're just this bunch of happy go lucky childish kids with no internal politics, bitching and everything and idk if i can find such happygolucky childish simple friends like you guys anymore... you guys were basically the ones who brightened up my upper sec life :))

i was also damn worried before during the first few days of CT cause even though ploty was playing werewolves, going around the school tgt, i was worried that this would not last long cause ploty ppl would start getting to love their classes and hang out with them and stop going out like tgt as ploty anymore.. like what was i to do when that happens?? i felt so damn scared that i'd end up wandering around hwachong alone for two years kay.

but anw in any case bigbirddddddd, don't worry cause idk about the whole of ploty but if you're feeling lonely or anything just send the whole ploty a text like meet at ____ for lunch or anything i'm sure that if we're free people like me tiny chelly jie netto etc etc would all turn up!:)) ploty has been so awesome for the past two years you guys are really really really important friends to me i'm so happy i got to know each and everyone of you so we musnt let ploty fade away okay :)

and as for your ct, idk but im starting to like my CT more now... wasn't as bad as i thought after spending more time with them... spend more time with them too? don't need to put on nicole goh's public face or whatever rubbish just be yourself(: if there're people in your CT who think that you're a nuisance/ whatever they probably just don't know you enough cause you can ask anyone in ploty we all think you're not, so don't care about those people, just be yourself and go make friends, i think time would make everything better alrights:)))

if there're still shitty annoying people in your class who make you feel out/ feel bad/ don't talk to you/ you just feel that you can't click with them no matter what then just keep a distance from them and make friends with other ppl luh!:) everyone in ploty's so awesome i don't see how anyone of us can stay a loner for long x33 go make friends kay; i used to think that i'll just go to school for the next two years with a poker face and just sit there do my work, go home, without caring much about my CT and just hope that JC life would pass faster, but you know, JC life is prolly the last time you'd have anything near a class.. university would be even worse with some friends overseas and the others in other schools and stuff and then after that we'd be working and stuffs already..

let's just try to enjoy as much of jc as possible k!(:

ahh idk if what im typing is coherent anymore but anw the main thing is that ploty won't drift apart/ won't fade away okay :))) i'd be damn sad if we ever did cause you guys are the first clique that i've ever had/ liked so much. i'm totally fine with you coming to find me when you feel alone or whatever you know! just come to my class bench to find me we can do work/ eat together/ i can introduce you to some nice friends in my CT as well and we can all make friends!:D

kk there mamasan who sucks at consoling ppl just attempted to type an entire post for you to cheer you up so smile okay!(: have more faith that ploty wouldn't break up and drift apart cause idk i have quite a few hi bye friends but ploty makes up that minority portion of my friends that i'd really think about when i'm sad or lonely/ that i'd go to when i feel like crying or finding someone to talk to/ that i can really hang out with in my silly crazy self without feeling any weird emotional walls between us or whatever.

hee okay you can't imagine how many bucketful of tears i've cried since i started typing this post cause i was looking through photos and thinking about all the ploty times since sec three heh. so long ago but i really miss them!)':

let's have another ploty outing sometime soon alrights(:
i really miss you guys!

and CLAIREYEO. you are my top geisha so you'd better cheer up smile and everything so that you won't have ugly wrinkles on your face!!:) i don't want my mamasan company to go bankrupt because all my customers find you too ugly dont want you anymore!:)

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PLOTY(: